To my beloved lady "E"...

Miss E has stumble across some MAJOR monetary issues due to cancer. Bills pile up. And, then they pile up again ... and again ... and again ...
E has to move, as her bills don't afford the opportunity for her to keep up her own home.
HER OWN FUCKING HOME!
E has medical issues, due to radiation, that don't let her sleep too terribly much because of pain.
E has been one of the BIGGEST cheerleaders of the YSC.
She stayed with me when she was in Seattle a few years ago when she was on a business trip.
She is amazing.
She is not alone.
I live in my converted garage bedroom.
This is what life has dealt us. Not fair ... NOT ONE BIT. Having to pay bill after bill. Having to compromise. Having to wonder which bill is the best to pay when you don't have enough to pay them all.
Sending my love to you tonight E. So glad to hear your sweet voice tonight and know that you're doing okay.
And, you WILL be okay. You are amazing, sweet girl.
xoxo
Anna

Sometimes ...

... We are blessed enough with having people in our lives that have been our cheerleaders when, maybe, we only had but a few. Those folks tend to stick in for the long haul.
I have one in mind tonight.
Just because ...
I love said precious Cheerleader and everything I've been bestowed by their eternal friendship.
The years have been long ... but, it seems like just yesterday when ...
xoxo
Anna

Godspeed "Tink" ...

A new angel awaits us.
Tracy lost her battle with cancer.
It was a shocking ending to a beautiful battle, as that sweet woman was such a fighter: for other survivors, for the cause of animals, and for her plans to raise a child. She and her husband, Romeo, fought very hard to make sure they could raise a child of their own. That child would have been so, so blessed.
The chemo that she was on was, clearly, too much for her tired body to handle.
I got word early this morning that she had left us.
I'm still shocked.
Why does this disease take us so RANDOMLY???? Those of us left behind wait for the other shoe to drop. The first (hidden) question in our minds is "Am I next????"
We wonder why we were "saved" for the next minute, day, month, year. It could be any one of us tomorrow. Not lost on us. That's the hard part. We live our lives knowing that we are NOT safe. We all know the stats, the studies, the odds ...
We, also, live our lives mourning our heros; women that have faced what we fear.
The YSC girls are mourning after many setbacks during the past few months. It's been a cluster-fuck of Awful. Too many ladies having to reset their realities to answer to Cancer.
However, those ladies have the biggest BALLS I've ever seen.
Circling the wagons as I type.
Tink, you are missed. You are loved. And, you're a true warrior.
I'll be sure to chat to you later when my head's on my pillow.

xoxo
Anna
p.s. I'll meet you some time later at the Possum Holler!

More Cave Singers musical loving ..

Beautiful song ... they are, simply, amazing. They'll be getting back to Seattle, soon, after a long tour.
This song reminds me of my first love ... I guess, the passion in it and the immediacy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ak7wN1rY0qU

xoxo
Anna

Holding up my sweet YSC pal Tracy/"Tink"...

Please keep sweet "Tink" in your hearts and prayers.
She is nearing the end of her battle with cancer after a sudden set back.
She has chosen to go home and spend her last days being cared for by hospice, surrounded by friends and family.
My heart is with you sister.
xoxo
Anna